I'm back in Kuwait, having spent a chunk of last week in Lausanne, Switzerland.
While I enjoyed the trip, I didn't stick to my habits. I'm not going to offer any excuses. I think I could have done a better job to take time out, remind myself of what matters most to me, and how my habits will help me get to where I want to be.
Instead, I drifted, and I prioritized the conference schedule over my own goals.
Nothing forced me to do that. Although I felt obligated to spend a good chunk of my days there in the conference, I didn't attend all sessions and could have easily made time for reflection, but I didn't.
I take responsibility for it, but I can't allow myself to extend the impact of the setback by ruminating over it and feeling frustrated by it. I acknowledge that it annoyed me and that I could have done better, but I need to channel this awareness to make better decisions in the future, and not to regret what has already happened.
I noticed I was irritable last night and today, and I suspect it has a lot to do with the setback. Rather than project my frustration at other people, I need to own this feeling of frustration, and to revive my positive attitude towards the changes I want to make in my life and to move on.
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
~ Rudyard Kipling