I'm feeling a bit down this evening. There isn't really a particular reason. By all accounts, things are going pretty well.
I've got a good paying job. There are opportunities available for me to cease, tasks I've volunteered for and chances to prove myself. I've worked on the same project for about 4 years now - the path the project has gone has driven me insane at times, but I've developed a lot of domain knowledge and people often come to me when they need help. A lot of the times, I'm second choice to our project lead, but I'm a senior member (in terms of length) of the entire company, never mind the project. I am trying to switch things up and get involved in other projects now - specifically returning to a project I lead from start to "end" a while ago.
I have a loving partner. She's chilling on her phone while I write my entry. She tolerates my shit and pushing me to better myself. Even if she is annoying as hell.
I'm surrounded by amazing people. I'm extremely grateful for the people I communicate with on a regular basis - my close friends, my Sortin' team and my family.
I think I'm just struggling with the limbo of moving house - 2 weeks to go and we'll be in!
I'm coming to terms with my major issues being caused by myself. I'm the only one stopping me from achieving the things I want to achieve. I need to motivate myself and I need to not wait for approval or convincing from others. I am going to make sure I achieve my 2019 goals. I have over 3 months to kick some ass.