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Aug 14, 2019 23:13:07

14th August 2019

by @craigpetterson PATRON | 294 words | 294🔥 | 296💌

Craig Petterson

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I'm feeling a bit down this evening. There isn't really a particular reason. By all accounts, things are going pretty well.

I've got a good paying job. There are opportunities available for me to cease, tasks I've volunteered for and chances to prove myself. I've worked on the same project for about 4 years now - the path the project has gone has driven me insane at times, but I've developed a lot of domain knowledge and people often come to me when they need help. A lot of the times, I'm second choice to our project lead, but I'm a senior member (in terms of length) of the entire company, never mind the project. I am trying to switch things up and get involved in other projects now - specifically returning to a project I lead from start to "end" a while ago.

I have a loving partner. She's chilling on her phone while I write my entry. She tolerates my shit and pushing me to better myself. Even if she is annoying as hell.

I'm surrounded by amazing people. I'm extremely grateful for the people I communicate with on a regular basis - my close friends, my Sortin' team and my family.

I think I'm just struggling with the limbo of moving house - 2 weeks to go and we'll be in!

I'm coming to terms with my major issues being caused by myself. I'm the only one stopping me from achieving the things I want to achieve. I need to motivate myself and I need to not wait for approval or convincing from others. I am going to make sure I achieve my 2019 goals. I have over 3 months to kick some ass.

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    @craigpetterson - See if putting extra pressure on yourself makes sense. Does it feel right internally? Or, is it just something you think you've seen other people do? ( this is your life -- you're not competing with anyone here and there's nothing you can win ) It's best if you can enjoy being in your own skin -- at your own pace.

    Brian Ball avatar Brian Ball | Aug 14, 2019 21:41:17
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      @brianball Your comments are always helpful, Brian. Thanks!

      Craig Petterson avatar Craig Petterson | Aug 17, 2019 21:46:25
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    @craigpetterson The conclusion was the best part. Out of the funk and into the action to get things done!

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Aug 14, 2019 16:16:52
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      @brandonwilson Nothing more therapeutic than setting a plan and putting it into action ;)

      Craig Petterson avatar Craig Petterson | Aug 17, 2019 21:44:36
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    @craigpetterson give yourself a little space to let go of all these negative, over pushing yourself might be spread yourself too thin. I believe you can achieve your 2019 goals !

    Knight avatar Knight | Aug 15, 2019 07:04:49
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      @knight Thanks Knight! Unfortunately, a lot of the extra stress is house related. I just have to plow through. Saw some progress today, so feel so much better. I can actually see an end in sight!

      Craig Petterson avatar Craig Petterson | Aug 17, 2019 21:44:04
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