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Sep 14, 2019 22:03:39


by @jootomscastroemelo | 203 words | 🐣 | 86πŸ’Œ

John Castrus Miles

Current day streak: 0🐣
Total posts: 86πŸ’Œ
Total words: 18339 (73 pages πŸ“„)

Today I was almost going to skip my streak here at 200wad. Somehow, I don't know how, I was able to gather some energy and came here to write what I'm writing now.

I spent most of the Saturday in bed. I feel ashamed for this, but it seemed impossible to do another way. My girlfriend is fed up with my moods, and I think I can understand her. 

I tell her maybe we should break up, but she tells me I wouldn't last long without her. I hate to admit she's right. What can I do? Will I never grow up to be someone who knows what I'm doing with my life? Will I always act out of fear of being alone? 

Things need to change but it seems so hard to change the smallest things, what can I say about the bigger decisions? It seems my life has reached a halting point where I can't tell what will come next. I really need advice and energy to get out of this place where I seem to be stuck. 

At least I can say to myself: you managed to write 200 words once again.

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    @jootomscastroemelo Hey man, first of all, congrats on keeping your streak going in spite of the circumstances. To me, that tells me that you have the strength to make the choices that matter to you and sticking with them.

    Second, what motivates you to keep writing? When you made the decision to start writing, you did it from an authentic "come from": You identify the task with who you want to become (in this case, a better writer).

    Can you find the same authentic "come from" for the decisions you are facing now?

    Meditating on this question may help you with the challenges and fears you mentioned in your post.

    carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Sep 14, 2019 21:07:25
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      @carlosbeas thanks for your opinion and support. You have no idea how important they are to me at this stage of my life.

      John Castrus Miles avatar John Castrus Miles | Sep 15, 2019 15:36:56
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      @jootomscastroemelo πŸ™πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌ

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Sep 15, 2019 20:05:18
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