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Jun 02, 2019 08:01:12

Before. During. After.

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Brian Ball

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"Don't open 200words without writing." says the smart part of me to the part of me that was about to open a new tab and the other part of me who thinks, but can't prove, there are more important tasks to be done.

"That's why you should write before you read." she chimes in without judgement, just lots of experience from years of patterns.

The smarter part of me is female. I don't know when gender confusion became a thing but we are clear it takes female components to give birth — at least for now. My female mind considers what comes after. 

We can't ignore the male contribution either.  In a lot of ways, a part of me has the strong male component willing to partner up, get excited, and enjoy the intercourse - and yet not feel entirely responsible for what may come afterward. This is the hunter in me. I'm looking, observing, scanning for an opportunity to pounce - but unless I'm particularly motivated, I might as easily slink off and take a nap. This is the part of me with 20 tabs open. The hunter.


As I write this, I'm reflecting on how activity can fall into a clear, three-part structure. Before, during, and after. 

By mentioning male and female, I'm hinting at the idea of sex. In biological terms, sex is the meeting of the sperm and the egg. In writing terms, it's where ideas meet words. In both, there's a before, during and after.

If you're clearly motivated or focused, the before quickly becomes the during. That activity is where writing turns into a completed entry. This activity can be male or female. 

In the lion world, the female are responsible. They ensure they complete the cycle into after. They like safety in numbers and want to ensure there's food to go around. The male is happy to lead, but doesn't require the consistency and shared effort to be content.

If I learn to be more fluid with my gender-based motivations, I'll better care for all parts of my activity lifecycle: before, during and after.

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    @brianball NO GLITCH!

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:30:36
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    @brianball and... hihihi... this 6 notifications ARE NOT A GLITCH!

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:30:28
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    @brianball and the comments are in the wrong order, damn!

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:29:57
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    Because all the fire is in the posts!!!
    (But is it enough of an excuse?!)

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:29:19
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    @brianball OMG... I LOVE THIS POST!!! <3 <3 <3

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:28:24
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    @brianball I love that what you write here!!!
    The ideas, the reflections...
    I feel like i could quote back to you here the whole text in chunks LOL
    I would definitely like to Reply with 300 thousands links of google search results to affirm and deny everything here!!! Because... HOW ABOUT SNAILS! and SEA HORSES, and GEESE and... ELEPHANTS... and WHALES... and...
    Maybe I will... (man/woman/child?) Maybe i will not... (man/woman/child?)

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:28:08
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    @brianball OH NO!!! I cannot believe... there is NO FLAME in your profile... oh no no no!?!?!?

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jun 02, 2019 20:23:00
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