After years of shutting the world out and pushing people away I have decided to climb out of the dark never ending hole I found myself in. The depression and anxiety meds are now all gone. I make it a point to leave the house 4 times a week and working on more. The fear I had of so many changes from the death of my brother, helping my nephew dry-out while he waited to get into rehab and watching my children hit milestones that whispered in my ear that they no longer needed me to hold their hands, kiss a boo boo or to live a full-time life as Mom. That was the biggest change for me as I have been a stay at home Mom for 24 years.
My children have all grown now and have their own worlds as I looked around after hearing that whisper, I knew I needed to find me, find the next chapter but this one I would be the main character. What the heck should I do? After thinking for months in January I enrolled in several courses and started to get out and meet new people and somewhere along the way I have found a path. I am now a Reiki Practitioner and by the end of July will be a Reiki Master/Teacher. Once I have hours in and insurance set up I can practice and earn money as an energy healer. I have also taken a life coaching course and a Mindfulness course. I make it a point to mediate daily and to find ways to breathe through life! I also bought an old fashion tea pot and have learned to love afternoon tea! What I thought would have been a sad messy chapter has turned into a calm one as I am learning to find my balance. I quit Yoga due to my downward spiral but now have signed up starting in May. I will feel awkward at the studio but this is the path I need to take to get back to my old self so I no longer care what people say because I am not a size 6 or lower like the majority at the studio. I am doing this for me not them.
So on a good note Debbie Downer was down like 3 lbs today! I gained 4 on holidays last week and already dropped 3 so I am inspired to rock this world and smash my goals. I promise my 200 words won't always be weight related I am known to be Kr8tive so stay tune my entries will improve. I just wanted everyone to know a little about me and I am the kinda girl who owns her shit so there now you know!
Game of Thrones season 8 premiere is about to air so time to shut down and I will be back tomorrow!
Many Blessings xo