I have some challenges i will have to face. The housing situation is the most pressing one. Should i find something i can buy? Or try to rent something where i can live alone? I really don’t want to live with strangers or anyone else for that matter.
Other then that, i look forward to a great week, Judo on Tuesday especially. I will have to remind myself about the need to give up my expectations for the future. In meditation, the most common thought is either thinking about the future or worrying about it. It’s all cool, the future will happen whether i think about it or not. It’s in the moment my life happens. But as i have come to realize, it’s not enough to just understand this intellectually, i have to experience it. (And this kind of experience takes time, part of the process of maturing). The good news is though, i am maturing a lot faster than the norm.
For now, i will meditate, read and go to sleep. There is no need to worry. As my favorite philosopher once said;
This is the real secret of life - to be completely engaged with what you are doing in the here and now. And instead of calling it work, realize that it is play. - Alan Watts