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Apr 10, 2019 07:16:30

My Biggest Fear

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I saw a list of the top 10 fears people have. I have 3. Needles, height and darkness. So I am no stranger to fear.  Fear and I have spent quality time with each other.

My biggest fear however isn't any of the top 10. 
With each passing year, my fears have evolved around the people in my life. 
I feel the need to solve their problems and to take care of them. It is a natural urge I have even when I meet people for the first time. I feel my purpose in life is being there for people.. especially with their emotional needs. A lot of career personality tests have all predicted that I should be in counseling or social work.  

So my biggest fear is not having the time and the ability to be there, to help and care for the people I love. Particularly my immediate family. I fear that I may not have enough time and money to spoil them. Though it feels like a race against time, I want to give my parents everything they need and want in their retirement.

I know what I want to do, it's the how that I am yet to figure out.  

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    @keni I can understand your fear, but I'm going to have to say it's unfounded. It's entirely within your power to be there for the people you love without the expectations of financial/material help. Think about it, if you put yourself in their shoes, would these be the most important things they expect from you?

    Gabriel Greco avatar Gabriel Greco | Apr 11, 2019 00:59:03
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      @gabrielgreco - I think you have been talking to my mom. She always reminds me to rest and not hustle so much. I am sure the people I love do not expect financial/material help. But it is two folds - one, I think my financial independence will give me back the time and freedom I need to spend more time with them. And two, my ability to be financially secure means I will be prepared for whatever my diabetes may throw at me later in life. And they wouldn't have to be worried about any of that.
      I do try to remind myself that spending time with each other is the most important thing. We actually do meet at least once a week. But you are right, it is easy to forget those important things.

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 10, 2019 22:15:59
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      @keni In that case it's at least as important to take care of yourself. Maybe that does mean listening to your mom's advice a little ;)

      Gabriel Greco avatar Gabriel Greco | Apr 11, 2019 14:37:35
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    @keni You will. You will be there for them, with enough time and money to spoil (i read that with my yoruba mind, lol). When your parents retire, your hands will give them all your hearts desire. Relax, the how will come.

    Seun Oyebode avatar Seun Oyebode | Apr 10, 2019 16:32:23
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      @seunoyebode - Thank you 'Seun.

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 10, 2019 12:20:23
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    @keni Thank you for sharing. You are truly caring when your biggest fear is not about yourself but about others,

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Apr 10, 2019 06:02:02
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      @keni @brandonwilson

      I actually think we all are -- save the .1 percent who are psycho/sociopath -- and this is why most people are unhappy or uneasy. Becaus their natural inclination is to actually be caring and live for others, but instead they try to go against it and live for themselves.

      Abe avatar Abe | Apr 10, 2019 15:34:14
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      @brandonwilson @abrahamKim - Thank you. It was a bit tough to write this post but it's worth it to identify and also revisit in the future.

      What you said Abe needs to be a detailed post.

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 10, 2019 10:17:09
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