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Oct 06, 2019 22:49:30

One Page at a Time

by @carlosbeas PATRON | 400 words | 🐣 | 105💌

carlos beas

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Lately I've been seeing life as if it was a book:  Each day can be thought of as a blank page in the morning when we wake up.  As we start taking actions, having interactions and experiencing emotions throughout our day, the words begin to appear on the page.

Sometimes we may not realize it, but the page where we are currently found may be the end of a chapter which was begun to be written years ago. This is the way I've been feeling about the days in the past couple of weeks leading up to today.

You see, my father passed away a couple of weeks ago; and as we were wrapping up his funeral service and saying my goodbyes to everyone of the relatives and siblings which had flown in from out of town for his service during the week, I realized that I was approaching the end of a chapter in my life which started when my father became ill with cancer almost 10 years ago.

Like the way I do with actual books I read, I had to pause and reflect about the chapter that I have just completed:  What are the learnings I'm taking from this? How will apply what I just learned moving forward?

This one was a very heavy chapter and thus required that I take my time digesting what just transpired. It has been one of those events that forces you to stop whatever you are doing and be fully present to what is happening in the moment (Right here. Right now).  A lot of emotions were triggered by the events that ensued following my father's passing, and it was important for me to be present to those emotions and taking my time to process them. 

Even though I am now feeling a little more at peace with the thought that he now is in a better place and not suffering anymore, I still think this is something that will take a long time to fully heal.  And perhaps I may never heal completely, but one way or the other, life must go on:  Even though my father's book has come to an end, mine is still being written and as the author, I get to ask myself "What do I want the pages of my new chapter to say?".

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    @carlosbeas It takes a lot of grit to write this. Thank you so much for sharing those precious thoughts with us. All the best to you and your family, you deserve it.

    Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Oct 09, 2019 11:39:53
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      @basilesamel Thank you so much for the kind words Basile :)

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 09, 2019 22:32:12
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    @carlosbeas - as a father and a son, it's always hard to hear / read about this time in life.

    I don't know that life is the best option. I have my life and experience, but don't think it matters.

    Big hug.

    Brian Ball avatar Brian Ball | Oct 08, 2019 21:58:33
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      @brianball Life + experiences = wisdom. Not very many people have it. And it always matters.
      Big hug right back to you, Brian!

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 08, 2019 23:48:15
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    @carlosbeas welcome to the #TeamStreak !

    Knight avatar Knight | Oct 09, 2019 07:00:37
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      @knight Thank you Knight! I'm honored to be a part of #TeamStreak now :)

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 08, 2019 22:54:01
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    @carlosbeas - This is so beautiful Carlos. I love how you wrote this piece. It is not an easy process but you seem to be truly present and aware of it. Very commendable. Love the attitude in your conclusion.

    My condolences on your loss.

    Keni avatar Keni | Oct 08, 2019 10:28:53
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      @keni Thank you so much for reading and for your kind words. This post came from the heart <3

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 08, 2019 22:53:19
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    @carlosbeas Ladies and Gentlemen of #Teamstreak....we have a NEW TEAM MEMBER!!!! Carlos came into the 200WAD community with the goal to improve his writing. Along the way, he's given us plenty of topics to ponder including productivity, habits, music, and more recently very deeply personal feelings about loss. I am thrilled to have you on the team. We are #Teamstreak!!!

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Oct 08, 2019 07:00:01
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    @carlosbeas I appreciate reading your thoughts as you endure these very difficult moments in your life. I'd like to formally extend an invitation to join #Teamstreak. When you have a moment, please read this and let me know if you're in. https://200wordsaday.com/words/why-i-started-teamstreak-225415d2b3b871c074

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Oct 07, 2019 17:57:22
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      @brandonwilson Loved it. Thank you for sharing @brandonwilson.
      Also, you can count me in!

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 07, 2019 23:27:40
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      @carlosbeas - Congratulations on joining #TeamStreak.

      Keni avatar Keni | Oct 08, 2019 10:29:16
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      @brandonwilson @keni Thank you Keni! :)

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 08, 2019 22:52:00
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    @carlosbeas loved the metaphor, and touching. My condolences for your father's passing.

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | Oct 07, 2019 20:37:58
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      @jasonleow Thank you for reading and for your support Jason!

      carlos beas avatar carlos beas | Oct 07, 2019 20:59:23
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