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Sep 27, 2019 15:29:15

Ostinato Rigore

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Basile Samel

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I've been feeling tired and bored over the last two weeks. Burnt-out, one could say. But it wouldn't be entirely true. I just needed some rest and some me-time to think and get some fresh air. We all have low periods throughout the year, it's just normal. There are moments where I feel like starting a business was a mistake and I would've been better off living comfortably with a stable wage. 

What do I tell myself when I feel like quitting my life as a maker? I just remember what led me to this point.

Leaving college, I gave myself two choices: I could either become an employee, live frugally, and invest the majority of my income in Vanguard index funds to reach financial independence during my thirties, or I could become an entrepreneur and dedicate 100% of my time to develop skills and a brand until I can make a living or I run out of savings.

In both cases, I always wanted to make my own software products. I received the opportunity to launch my first startup with two co-founders just before graduating, and so I decided to opt for the second option. There was no need to live a deferred life. 

I remember reading Paul Graham's How to Make Wealth essay right before taking my decision. I've been obsessed with time since middle school, and I was afraid that working in a company after a six-month internship as a software consultant would slow down my personal growth by locking me up in patterns and cognitive boxes. I barely know who I am and what I want, entrepreneurship was a way to start figuring it out: it's only when you're free to do whatever you want you can focus on what deeply attracts you, at the most primal level.

I'm grateful for where I am today, and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. A maker, this is who I am at the core. I have to accept I'm just a human: I'll always experience periods of doubts no matter what I do, but those are temporary. Take the time to live, but be relentless and rigorous when you decide to act: ostinato rigore.

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    @basilesamel honest share. I'm feeling it too, but in terms of my ability to learn coding. Hope too that it will pass!

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | Sep 27, 2019 21:58:26
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      @jasonleow I'm starting to develop a personal framework regarding my motivation level. I'm gonna try to share more about it.

      Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Sep 27, 2019 16:30:15
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      @basilesamel nice do share

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | Sep 27, 2019 22:33:30
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    @basilesamel - thanks for sharing. When I feel like this, I remember to get rest, and get back to basics. Eat well. Sleep well. Exercise appropriately. Be near other humans doing fun and interesting things.

    When you're nomadic, how do you get out and be near people you can listen to?

    Brian Ball avatar Brian Ball | Sep 27, 2019 06:38:36
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      @brianball I'm lucky to meet people wherever I go. Friends from friends, Tinder, random strangers met in streets and bars... it's really not that hard nowadays. Over the last two weeks, for example, I went out with friends and dated a girl I met at some party. Then as you said, I slept, ate, and laughed a lot. Feeling much better now!

      Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Sep 27, 2019 16:28:35
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