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Feb 13, 2019 13:51:58

Struggling to Enjoy Writing?

by @abrahamKim PATRON | 538 words | 1🔥 | 456💌


Current day streak: 1🔥
Total posts: 456💌
Total words: 168069 (672 pages 📄)

Struggling to write? Feel like you’re posting 200+ words only because you told yourself you would? Because when you rationalize it, 200 words really ought not be too hard? But it is hard. It was for me, and here’s why:

Lately, I’ve been able to code spontaneously. Even without plans, I’ll find myself coding something. But with writing, even though  I enjoy it, it’s not something I spontaneously fall into. Unless schedule in, I probably won’t do it.

When 200WAD began, there wasn’t a timezone feature. So the daily deadline for me came at 6PM. So what I’d been doing for the past several weeks is scheduling my daily writing time around 5. BTW - I never changed my timezone still because I like seeing Zurich on my profile haha.

This was good slot at first. I’d finish work and begin writing. Then the New Year was beginning to turn not so new. My girlfriend started classes again, and 5PM no longer became free for me. 5PM needed to be flexible. There could be the odd social event or the usual ride I had to give my girlfriend or on a lot of days, I’d just want to work a little longer. 

So 5 PM became not a good time. But I continued to write then, because I’d told myself I would. And from this experience, I’ve learned the fastest way to second guess your ambitions is by scheduling two of them to fight for the same time slot. In this case I began second-guessing writing. How could I not? I had designed my day so that 5 PM became decision time. Everyday, I had to decide whether writing was something I wanted to do. And I had done it most days because I scheduled it in, but it always felt like it was encroaching on my already established programming flow. It felt like back-to-back tinder dates on a Friday night.

Because today is a big day at work for me, yesterday was a busy one. I’ve been re-writing a webapp and I’m giving the stakeholders their first demo. So yesterday evening, the writing naturally felt even more imposing come 5 PM. I began thinking crazy things like, oh maybe I don’t want to write. Maybe I’m meant just to program and do business. But with a clearer mind I thought further that, no I should just reschedule my writing, so it never feels like it is encroaching on the programming.

The thing here is that I’ve been having these for about two weeks now, yet I still forced myself to write. Yesterday’s more dire work-constrained moment allowed me to commit to another possibility. Just write at another time. So here I am. Writing during my morning.

It wasn’t easy to make this new commitment. For a moment last night. I thought about not only my streak, but also the writers on the fellowship creeping up on me -- like @timsubiaco  haha. This all gave me a little pain. Made me consider writing yet another unmotivated post before the 6PM deadline. But luckily, I was able to not let the pain steer me. I instead got back to work. So here's a post that I wrote, and actually liked writing. Hope you enjoyed!

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    @abrahamKim @basilesamel Could we get tags working in the body of posts? I didn't receive a notification from my tag here :)

    Tim Subiaco avatar Tim Subiaco | Feb 15, 2019 10:15:46
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      @abrahamKim @timsubiaco yes it's a bug :P I don't know why the notifs don't work anymore. Gonna fix it asap

      Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Feb 15, 2019 16:18:58
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      @timsubiaco I couldn't reproduce the bug :/ no idea why

      Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Feb 15, 2019 18:21:14
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      @abrahamKim @basilesamel The notifications work but not for me when they are in the body of the actual 200 words a day article. Have you tried reproducing that?

      Also, can we have an option for our notifications to stick around. Having them disappear is quite annoying as I want to respond to people's comments after reading them once.

      Tim Subiaco avatar Tim Subiaco | Feb 16, 2019 23:21:25
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    @abrahamKim Haha, I didn't notice that I'm only one behind you in terms of posts written! Keep it up. I only have one question - are you a NodeJs guy?

    Tim Subiaco avatar Tim Subiaco | Feb 15, 2019 09:34:33
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      In 2014 I was shattered because I was aiming to be all in on Node JS and express, but then had to use PHP because of a contract job I got. What I had in mind was that I would use PHP until that contract job and then try to get another job in the Node ecosystem.

      But then that contract got extended and I kept learning more about PHP -- the modern one. And I fell in love with it. I'm a Laravel guy now haha.

      I want to know more about your dev background. What have you been up to and what are you up to now and what are your longer-term goals?

      Abe avatar Abe | Feb 15, 2019 18:22:38
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      @abrahamKim interesting. I think there’s a good reason why people fall in love with Laravel. Synchronous code and crud go together very well. Node is hell sometimes. I like it for building small things but as I scale up to bigger projects I’m not so sure. Working front end mainly but trying to break into the bitcoin space eventually. I’ll post on here when I launch my side project ;)

      Tim Subiaco avatar Tim Subiaco | Feb 15, 2019 18:38:05
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      @timsubiaco Looking forward to seeing that project launch!

      Abe avatar Abe | Feb 26, 2019 15:43:22
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    @abrahamKim I still use the Zurich timezone as well! It gives me the most time to write given my schedule.

    Abhinaya Konduru avatar Abhinaya Konduru | Feb 13, 2019 22:04:08
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      Haha my schedule used to be in the same boat as yours. Now the time leading up to 6PM is too much volatile for me.

      Abe avatar Abe | Feb 15, 2019 18:23:08
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