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Aug 17, 2019 22:29:27

The dreamer’s dream [5]

by @timsubiaco PATRON | 205 words | 🐣 | 153💌

Tim Subiaco

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I would think about that night for years. I would crawl on my hands and knees through each moment until I found where I lost control. My self, me, my life and all that I was. It was an orange in my hand that at some point I let slip.  So small and so round.  And I let it go. And I saw it tumble into the silent dark.

I was determined not to let her get away again. I thought myself an idiot, but now I see myself as a pitiful child. Theo always made fun of me for not being cuddly. But the truth, which is painfully obvious, is that I have mixed it with intimacy and in seeking solace, I sought her. 

It’s not so much as her mask slipped but that between each lighting of each cigarette, I was face to face with someone whose face I had painted over with my stories. Whose life I had hitched a ride on. A tangential spirit that I clung onto with the seeking hands of a child and thrust into my soul. 

I would dream this dream and in this dream I would wake to dream it again.

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    @timsubiaco You need to get out more. And when I say that, I mean beyond 200WaD and into the wide world where millions await to read the intriguing journeys you lead the reader on through turns of phrase, imagery and full on emotional bludgeoning. It is, at times (all times??!!), disturbing, of course. But the way you write is kind of addictive to read...

    Arthur Kendall avatar Arthur Kendall | Aug 18, 2019 00:27:55
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      @arthurkendall Thank you.

      It’s been difficult to write what I’ve been writing but your comment gives me courage, courage to know that my craziness is understandable and that by extension, I am not alone in it.

      Tim Subiaco avatar Tim Subiaco | Aug 18, 2019 18:56:20
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      @timsubiaco Apart from the fact that it has the relatively unusual characteristic of being compelling, urging the reader to continue to explore this world you build in our minds, regardless of individual experiences, I know I'm not the only one who can identify with parts of what you write...

      Arthur Kendall avatar Arthur Kendall | Aug 23, 2019 20:28:06
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      @timsubiaco @arthurkendall +1

      Abe avatar Abe | Aug 25, 2019 15:43:25
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