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May 04, 2019 11:39:16

Up vs Down -- Gift vs Obligation

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.10 Blood Alcohol Content (BAC) is a great place to be. Not so drunk that the cognition's off, but everything's lubricated the right amount to let you be what you might consider more 'the real you'. Of course, there's one caveat:

.10 BAC on the way up is a hell of a lot different than falling down. The number's the same. Breathe into the breathelyzer and register a .10, but the lived experience of coming down from being drunk and climbing up to .10 with those first three drinks with friends are worlds apart. 

This contrast reminds me of fulfilling my responsibilities early in the morning vs at night. I'm still doing the same thing you're supposed to be doing, but in one instance it feels like a gift, an opportunity even, whereas in the other, especially as the day gets darker, it feels increasingly like an obligation.

This feeling visited me on a daily basis I noticed. I either felt like my day was a gift or an obligation. And one of the keystone factors was 'when'. When was my purpose being carried out. When it was urgent and I was acting as a firefighter? Or when it was important, yet time was not the most salient variable.

Time travels in one direction for mortals like us, and a key factor to being okay, no even embracing my mortality and the shortness of time has been living more in states of mind that's unconcerned with auditing the sands of time. BTW this is also what being flow does to you.

TLDR: The less time you spend worrying about time, the more you enjoy your time. Yes this is a slight on the ambition to schedule the entire day to maximize productivity -- especially when aided by new apps.

An example of me writing about a concrete example of this philosophy :




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    @abrahamKim - Gift Vs Obligation - I should question most things in that frame.

    9-5 - Obligation (health insurance)
    Passion Project - Gift
    Family & Friends- Gift
    200wordsAday - Gift
    The Streak - Gift
    Music - Most definitely GIFT
    Checking my sugar - Obligation

    It looks like I have a surplus of gifts :)

    Thank you for this piece.

    Keni avatar Keni | May 04, 2019 21:40:11
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      You think one day 9-5 will turn into gift?

      Abe avatar Abe | May 07, 2019 20:11:28
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      @abrahamKim - :) If I am the one making the start time and stop time 9-5 myself - maybe?

      But yeah I am way past the stage of my life where I think that 9-5 is a gift. Giving that much of my time to another institution is the ultimate obligation. Getting my time back to do what I would love to do is the ultimate gift :)

      Keni avatar Keni | May 07, 2019 14:14:38
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    @abrahamKim Interesting tie-in with the BAC example, but I would argue by .10 your cognition is definitely impaired. It is interesting to think about perspective and how one measure of data at a point in time can be viewed differently depending on which side of that data point you are on.

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | May 04, 2019 11:28:44
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      I think .10 is impaired cognition from an objective point. But not enough to personally be convinced one is 'impaired'. I think > .12 is where the person begins to really feel that they ought to not make heavy cognitive decisions.

      in michigan legal driving limit used to be up to .10 bac until they dropped it to .08 about a decade ago

      Abe avatar Abe | May 05, 2019 13:16:25
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