Right now I just don't want to mentally commit to working. As a way out I'm turning to 200 WAD. I still haven't figured out the best time to write, nor have I ever known what I'm going to write about until I actually start writing. I would like to structure my posts better and learn to be a better writer. However, a lot of the time I feel rushed just to get the post out and maintain my streak.
It would be nice to plan ahead and flesh out topics in advance so that I could write more meaningful posts. But I don't because work generally takes up the bulk of my day and the bulk of my mental energy. I don't like the feeling of just "winging it", but at the same time I also find some satisfaction in pulling text out of thin air to create a post. Same goes for my work. I could benefit from planning ahead more, but oftentimes I just need to get started and figure things out as I go.
Either way, I still haven't addressed the issue of procrastination and using 200 WAD as an escape. It's like this new "habit" is interesting and thought-provoking and enjoyable but I'm still not willing to commit to it wholeheartedly. I'm just flopping about, writing stuff that is usually quite worthless.
I've been wrestling with this whole new "writing habit" stuff a lot this week. I still don't understand what I want from it and if I even want it. But hey, I've been turning up every day for the past 60+ days, so it must mean something, right?