It was after my mini getaway with my friend in September that I started questioning everything I was doing and why I was doing it. Nothing I was doing seemed like it mattered in the world and I couldn't really see the purpose of doing anything.
I was uninspired, unmotivated, and unhappy.
What did I do to escape all these thoughts? Watch videos.
That's the only thing that keeps me away from my own thoughts. So I started watching some Asian dramas on Netflix that my friends recommended.
That soon turned into a routine of watching shows from ~6PM - ~10PM. When I watch shows, I love getting to know more about the actors that are playing the characters. I usually read about them on Wikipedia at the end of the series.
In a month, I watched 4 different Asian dramas that have 30+ episodes and each episode runs for 40+ minutes. Right around that time, I came across a trending video on YouTube that caught my eye. That music video was Idol ft. Nicki Minaj by BTS, a Korean boy band.
Something about their beats, lyrics, weird visuals throughout the video and comments underneath the video made me checkout more of their music.
In a weeks or so, I was down the rabbit hole of not only listening to their music but started watching their non-music videos, reading about their backgrounds and how they became the number one boy band in the world.
I love and envy them so much that they found their passion and get to work on their dreams 24/7.
I don't know if it is just the image that they created or if it is genuine but I love everything they stand for.
Not only did I get out of the state of mind where I didn't want to do anything but I also found a new appreciation for music and artists.
They were even better when I saw them perform live after few weeks of discovering them.
One day, I hope, I can figure out what my something is that I forget to eat or sleep to work on it.