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Jan 16, 2019 23:22:23

You will at some point wish desperately to be in the exact same moment right now

by @sincerely.black PATRON | 239 words | 🐣 | 61💌


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I once partied a bit too hard in Berlin.

It was winter and I came down with a massive illness.

Ive never felt so fucking bad in my life.

I was completely knocked out for 4 days straight.

I remember lying there on pain meds, still in insane pain.

At that point, not knowing when and how this will pass or if I might have caught something serious, I remember clearly thinking:

„Oh wow, if only I could go back to just feeling the same way I felt a couple of days ago. If this passes, everything will be 100% fine and Ill be the happiest dude alive.“

It passed.

But im not the happiest dude alive.

An employee at work was a dick today.

I also hurt my foot on the chair.

And just generally I havent slept that well.

I dont feel as insanely happy about being in good health as I thought I would feel about it, when I was super ill and feeling like shit.

I also feel like there is absolutely nothing special about how I feel in this moment.

But then I try to imagine myself lying on my deathbed and thinking about the time I was 30, typing these words to keep my writing streak going in this awesome platform here.

There I would be the happiest dude ever if I just could go back to that moment right now.

Im essentially there.

Right now.

From AG's collection:

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    @ag I always do this.
    "What would I think about this situation in x years?" or
    "What would I be doing in x years?"

    One of those answers stuck with me for a long time and it's so meta to think about what I was thinking back in the day about the future.

    Abhinaya Konduru avatar Abhinaya Konduru | Jan 17, 2019 14:15:53
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      @ag @itsabhinaya hihi, cool!

      Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jan 17, 2019 15:23:50
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      @itsabhinaya Totally! It feels so weird to think about it like that

      AG avatar AG | Jan 18, 2019 15:34:13
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    Im essentially here.

    Right now.

    That's cool!

    Cheers ;-)

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Jan 17, 2019 02:48:41
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      @lucjah thanks :)

      AG avatar AG | Jan 17, 2019 08:35:27
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    @ag Been there with the 4 day hangover / illness. Mine was in Costa Rica and mutated into a full blown sinus infection.

    Hank avatar Hank | Jan 16, 2019 20:48:48
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      @Hank feel ya!

      AG avatar AG | Jan 17, 2019 08:35:49
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