[zazen (2) one might think it's meditation]
But zen does not promise anything, it just shows us the process, points a finger towards the moon. It is a map. What you do with it is up to you.
What do you need? Determination, openness, courage? Naivety, stupidity, luck?
To face who you really are. Down there, under all the crap we carry around, all the ego mechanisms helping us to survive, all the believes about ourselves making life bearable.
It is uncomfortable, scary, painful. We know the path, but the fear holds us back. Or we set off, but we cannot stand it and turn round. Or we get stuck and drown in the darkness. Or we try to cope by denying. Denying Mr Hyde crouching underneath the polished surface. There are many ways to do it. Projecting the darkness onto others, then hating and prosecuting them. Turning away and getting too busy with "reality". Believing that we are the ones free from the shadow, "the good" ones, the noble ones, the spiritual (spiritual materialism).
All these attempts just make the darkness more desperate to be seen, recognised, acknowledged.
But the blackness is just another layer to be crossed. It is hard to hold onto that idea when you drag yourself thru your own murky, horrifying, repulsive part. Yet, they say, there is something beyond. The true self. The original mind. The same for everyone. Oneness.
When you enter the forest and hear a bird's song, it's a glimpse.
What a divine truth! Total crap!
Bleh bleh bleh...
I didn't go to the forest today...